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what do you do when a guy says hes interested in you but makes NO MOVES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've tried making the moves myself an he told me he wants to take things slow, but i NEED to get something from him, somethin that tells me he is acutally interested...
now im all depressed and im eating my entire house worth of food...
great....
dissapointment again, ive already had like 10 billion calories in the way of alcohol..
ughh im gross
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[08.20.08] |
I am such a failure. I managed to meet my first goal weight of 130 (a 20 lb loss and still disgusting)and I thought I ate decently when I was camping but it turns out I gained everything back. Damn weed giving me fucking munchies all the time! Ugh! So I need to get back on track, school starts in 2 weeks and I need to re loose the weight!!! Any one have any good ideas to jump start it??
Ss and tt
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i swear every effort i make to try and slim down my thighs fails miserably. thigh presses etc. havent made any difference :(
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[08.20.08] |
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Has anyone tried them? They seem to work but ever since I've been taking them I've been tingly in the feet. I don't think that it's related to that though...
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[08.20.08] |
food talk but i need help.
i have to eat tonight.big meal with the family.
ive not eaten anything today bt i have to do this for my mum
jacket potato is what i have to have(even though im not going to eat it all.prob just the skin)
whats the healthiest thing i can have with it?
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[08.20.08] |
IZZY GOT ME MCGRIDDLES IN A HAPPY MEAL BOX!!!!! YAY!!!! :D UBER UBER THANK YOU WITH A BIGGER CAPITAL "T"
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[08.20.08] |
Argh I don't know what to do! I binged and now I am FIVE lb heavier! And I can't exercise because I am injured and I can't run through it anymore because it hurts too much. When I can run I can lose 5lb of binge weight in one day but now I can't get rid of it! Fasting is not enough. I got laxatives and diet pills for the first time in AGES today. Better than nothing but not enough. What else can I do? I feel like there must be something! I'm going to make myself cry when I get home so I can at least lose a tiny bit of weight in tears. I'm nuts. I just really need to get my weight down NOW! I know it will go down eventually but I just CAN'T STAND IT!
I'm so disappointed with myself. I really felt like I had my eating under control this time. I was being more moderate with my restricting and exercising because I am sort of trying to recover/not be as bad. I know why I binged. I have been too scared to go out for quite a while. I wanted to push myself to do it. Its part of what I'm supposed to do for therapy. I finally managed to get out and see a good friend. When I got home I had a panic attack and binged. It's so depressing that I can't even see a good friend. I feel like I'm never going to get better.
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Binged.
Was doing this week too... lost 4 pounds but now i've prob just put it all back on :(
I hate it when this happens (Don't we all) and i can't even go out for my walk because i'm grounded. Errr.
Another thing... GCSE results tomorrow, i'm absolutly crapping myself because i know i've done rubbish and my parents are expecting so much from me even though i told them that i've done rubbish and not to expect anything!
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is it weird that i can either eat nothing but small, restricted meals that i have planned ahead? like if i take so much as one bite of something else, i bag it all and binge? i hate how im either all or nothing.
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I am so depressed with no motivation to get up off my but at all..i havn't left the house in two days so no one will look at me because i feel like am and ugly cow:(
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Managed a successful fast yesterday. Going for day two today.
Very depressed and fighting the urges.
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Last night I took half an e pill with my best friend.
It wasn't my first time, but I feel like shit.
I have not slept, and I really want to but I'm not sure how.
I feel like shit, and guilty about it. I just.. ugh I don't know anymore.
I just can't help it. I wanted to try it again, see what it felt like again.
I wish there was some way I could say NO.
But I'm so fucking spineless right now. I only like doing mary jane. I don't like other drugs.
It's a good high for a bit then im just fucking down for the rest of the week.
On top of that I have plans today. I have to go see my friend, we have plans to smoke weed, and see a movie.
I can't cancel on her because it's been forever and I miss her.
If anyone knows anyways to help sleep, or to make you feel better coming off e, please let me know.
<3xx
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| So c'mon, VOGUE |
[08.20.08] |
Toooonight i am wearing-
Size 8 (UK) French Connection denim dungarees- £20 (in sale raa!)
Size 8 (UK) black leggings from Top Shop- £10
(Fake....eh) Dolce and Gabbana sunglasses- £8
SEXY kneee length black leather heels from Clarks- £75
Accessories- purple mock crocodile skin bag from Clarks- £25
Silver and garnet (red for my ANAS) ring, which i got in a vintage store- £8
Is my full outfit less than £150? YES
Do i FEEl like A BILLION DOLLARS in it????
Hell Yeah!!!
I look like a frickin model i sware. Give me a nip and tuck here and there and i could model for dior, hahaha.
Nah im kidding, i aint that vain. Still, feel very pretty today xxx
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[08.20.08] |
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Hihi, it's my second post here.
Please leave some comments or feedback be it positive or negative, would really appreciate them.
Thank you! =))
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[08.20.08] |
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I was 99lbs and now I'm 140lbs!!! I'm such a failure, I just cannot stop eating. I've realized my depression has caused me to eat and whenever someone pisses me off I eat like the worlds gonna end. What the hell as happened to me?
And now, I am afraid I cannot lose all of this weight as fast as I can. I've been trying but I keep eating more. I've pushed it to #99 to lose weight and now I must at least lose 8lbs a week. Is it possible? Cause I'm so sick with myself that I just dont want to eat ever again!! So I'm desperate, more than desperate to do anything to lose weight.
If I only can be 112lbs before end of next month( is it possible?), I would be more than happy. Because the only way to my happiness is to lose as much weight. I will never eat again.
I've wanted to start a fast today and restrict as much as I can from next week, and until I reach my weight of 99lbs again. I can do this!! i've done it before!
I'm so scared that I won't be able to lose as much weight even when I dont eat anything at all or am I just paranoid?
What the hell !!! I'm going to do it and see what happens.
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please send me thinspo. skinny thighes, hip, rib, and collar bones. anything to motivate me.
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